hmmm

im beginning to notice myself trying to break out of the routine of life i set on myself for so long. for so long, i could tell you what i was doing every day of the week, at what time, and how id get there...exactly. liiike to the t of when id change lanes. and when it suddenly dawned on me that that isnt exactly the most exciting way to live, i started to change it. and its little things to, liiike for instance when i am driving home from adams house, i would get on the freeway and immediately get in the far left lane and stay there until i reached dos lagos, then id get in the middle lane, and when i got to cajalico i would get in the right lane to exit at el cerrito. but now what ill do is ill stay in the left lane as long as i can. and then jump across both lanes. and that might not seem like a big deal to you, but to me, i have to seriously tell myself, "okay aly, really try your hardest to wait to get over." and you may say well, changing lanes isnt that big of a deal. but when you look back on how anal id get about it. then you start to realize that perhaps im not the laid back person i come off to be. my mind is going 500 mph even when my body is going 3mph. soo, i feel if i take it slow and make slower changes i can start to see that life is easy. and it doesnt have to be soo structured which is something really hard for me to see.
soo yeah :]